Collette Livermore responds... (Main Forum)

by Colette, Thursday, December 11, 2008, 07:36 (1624 days ago) @ James

I think the insensible forces of the Universe are hard to reconcile with Jesus' personal God ofthe lillies of the field and the sparrows. That is why I don't accept that I am unable to believe because I have a false idea of who or what God is. I think there is a fine line between doubt and faith, between believer and non believer and all we can do as Rilke says is sit with the questions, be honest andcourageous and speak the truth as we erceive it. I don't accept that Mother Teresa's darkness was a God sent trial.I think she had real issues but she was afraid to face them because she felt she may commit the sin of blasphemy and so thought-blocked and confessed these thoughts as temptations. Having emptied herself of all that was not God she felt within herself an oppressive loneliness - and spoke of a pain of loss of God not being God of God not really existing. She felt heaven which in a way is an antidote to injustice, suffering and death - particulary of children - wasa convincing empitness.