Life robs one of personhood (Main Forum)

by Macbee, Australia, Friday, May 18, 2012, 09:10 (371 days ago) @ Dolores

Dolores

I am off this morning to see a new Psychologist I walked into the Salvos the other day needed so to talk to someone about "ME" i seam to have lost some part of myself and have not been sleeping at all. when my boy gets violent towards me at night it kills me, to think the men that hurt me are dead and now i have this child saying thing to me that a child should not say to their Grandmother who loves them so deeply,who is going to protect them no matter what. he is very much like my father who died only weeks before he was born and he dad has seemd to have come back into my life. I know for sure my life robbed me of many things being an abuse child then adult when i made up my mind that nobody was going to treat me like that again it was a great feeling and now i have this child sounding like an adult man it is terrible. My friend was saying while he was here last night while i was putting up my post that could i ever imagaine tens years ago that i would be doing what i am doing on Catholica, could i see myself back in Bondi standing in the pub with no life, i just said i did not want to talk about that life because that was then and this is now. the salvos were so beautiful to me and can see the lady that helps people for only 30 dollars instaed of the huge amountof money others charge up to 250 dollars for the hour so wish me luck and thanks for that great post.

macbee